The first look at Bruce Jenner as a woman -- Caitlyn

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bruce-and-jenner-caitlyn.jpgWorld, meet Caitlyn Jenner. Caitlyn, formerly known as Bruce Jenner, graces the July cover of Vanity Fair. Famed photographer Annie Leibovitz (the woman behind Kim Kardashian and Kanye West's Vogue cover) shot the first portraits of Caitlyn, 65, earlier this month at her Malibu home.

In a behind-the-scenes video from the shoot, Caitlyn says she is finally free:

"I was probably at the [Olympic] Games because I was running away from a lot of things. Very, very proud of the accomplishment, I don't want to diminish that accomplishment. The last few days of doing this shoot was about my life and who I am as a person. It's not about the fanfare, it's not about people cheering in the stadium, it's not about going down the street and everybody giving me a, 'That a boy Bruce' pat on the back. This is about your life. Bruce always had to tell a lie. He was always living that lie, every day he always had a secret from morning 'til night. Caitlyn doesn't have any secrets. Soon as the Vanity Fair cover comes out, I'm free."

Caitlyn sat down with Pulitzer Prize-winning contributing editor Buzz Bissinger (who also wrote Friday Night Lights) for the issue. Bissinger spent hundreds of hours with Jenner, both as Bruce and Caitlyn, and begins the article on March 15, 2015, when Jenner officially said goodbye to Bruce.

Jenner left the surgeon's office in March as Caitlyn (the Diane Sawyer interview aired after the completed transition). During Caitlyn's first full day of recovery at home in Malibu she experienced a panic attack for the first time in 65 years. It only lasted 15 seconds but as she paced around, she was consumed with the thought: "What did I just do? What did I just do to myself?" A counselor from the Los Angeles Gender Center came over to help ease her mind. Caitlyn explains that since that initial incident, she has not had another, nor does she have any regrets.

Caitlyn's main goal is to live a life without lies, because Bruce was "always telling lies." This is something her oldest children - Brandon, Cassandra, Brody, and Burt - are hoping for as well.

"I have high hopes that Caitlyn is a better person than Bruce," Burt, 36, tells the magazine. "I'm very much looking forward to that."