Slain gangster Cedric Murray, otherwise called “Doggie” girlfriend had a casual chat with RJR radio and we had to share excerpts from it with you. All we can say is interesting…real interesting.
She told the station about their year old son, Marcus, Murray's sixth and youngest child.
"It’s sad because his father planned so much for his first birthday and when I see that it's me and him alone (tears) came to my eye but I just tried to be strong. He didn’t know how to explain to his children, so when my daughter bought him that diary he laughed and said ‘the right thing she buy me, you know," Sherry said.
According to her, Murray wrote in the diary and told her he felt like writing a book.
However, he said he would not be honest in it, so why bother.
"(My son, his youngest) wasn’t born yet and he wasn’t sure if it was going to be a boy, but when he found out he was going to have a son, him kinda scared that he was going to have a son.
He was kinda fretting about the whole thing and questioning who he is, the life that he’s living now … he didn’t want his son to walk in his footstep, so (he thought) the best thing as for (his son) to have the diary for him to see it and understand.
"When you read the diary, you feel the pain even if you’re not a part of him … he (couldn’t) get to live the kind of life he would like to live,” Sherry said.
It was evident that the young woman loved Murray who also loved her given the number of times he mentioned her, his "Royal Princess," in the diary.
“To me he loves all of us a lot…me and his next baby mother and the one before (us) too … he is a loving person no matter where he is or who he’s around he’s always loving and when you wear short clothes him cover you up and if you look too sexy you can’t move from beside him. He kissed me and ask ‘you nuh ‘fraid?".
According to her, Murray was up front with all the women in his life.
"He (never) pretend … is just him dat … kiss up and massage you shoulders no matter where he is. We (the babymothers) jealous in our own way but we accept it because he (never hide) any of his children … even if him go out there and get a youth, him have to make you know about it.
"Two (of his older children) are abroad (they are) 20 plus (years old) … no teenagers (are here in Jamaica) just nine, four, two and one (year olds)," Sherry said.
She added that he adopted her two daughters as his own and did the same for the mothers of his other children.
It was one of Sherry's daughters who was mentioned by Murray as having given him the diary to write in.
She noted that both her girls have taken his death badly.
"Yes that's my daughter, she don’t want to come out. She roll in a di road and said ‘they kill her father’ and his other baby mother’s kids behave the same way because he helped them a lot, he’s always there.
Since I have (my son), him (would ask) if his shoes (was) alright and I said yeah and he (would) kiss him teeth and say ‘see it, you acting like is (him) one you have, what happen to (two girls) … (do) they have shoes … are their clothes getting tight, he was that kind of person," Sherry told the station.
"He went up there, had kids and ended up going to prison (but) prison changed his life. He said he was still a gangster in the prison (but) one day he went to this counseling thing and heard a cokehead [drug addict] talking and he cried saying it softened his heart and he took up his Bible.
"His friends laughed and said it was a sham until they saw that he really changed.
He said he and the [prison] inspector couldn’t get along and they became such good friends, telling their life stories … he (also) took up the class to be a counselor," Sherry explained.
She continued that when Murray returned to Jamaica, he was going to church with his mother, however, things changed after his brother who lived overseas was killed.
"He said of the killers came to (Jamaica) and threatened his little baby and his family and that made him bitter again … he changed completely again but was still a loving person.
People always come to him saying that their children are giving worries and he showed them his life. Children always come (and get) lunch money," Sherry said.
She stressed that Murray loved children, especially his own who he did not get to see often.
"When his friends don't carry their children on the corner, him cuss (them) … saying bring yuh youth dem deh pon di corner!
And when him see them do that, he’ll say buy them ice cream … he loved to see the men have their kids on the corner because he couldn’t do that.
But anytime he felt like it was the right time, he always had his children around him."
As is evident throughout Murray’s diary, he was influenced by the church a lot.
According to Sherry, he could have been a pastor.
"He (could) pray. And he always said that if he (was) not pure, he (was) would not gonna pray for you.
If he’s here and he cuss a bad word and him miserable, you can’t get him to pray for you. He always wanted to be a pastor because you have this pastor that comes from foreign, before things get so bad with him, him always visit him and his wife.
And he always said to me that he would love to call him but him shame to see what he’s become, so he can’t face him.
He always sat near a church and he has a whole heap of Bibles … him born with the good side," she said.
When asked how she justified taking his money, Sherry said some things she had to keep private, but she says he kept the bloodier side of his life away from her and would not let her know what he was doing.
She believes in the months before his death, he had cut certain money sources out of his life and was trying to do right.
She accepted what he said about his money coming from persons from his past who owed him for favours.
"Him tell me that certain contacts that he had … him stop it because that only caused his name to be called. He said what he was getting now is from people who he helped in the past … they were just paying back the favour.
“He knows that I don’t like certain things so he’s not going to tell me certain things because he knows it will freak me out," Sherry contends.
What do you all think?